Life comes in seasons. Often our seasons of joy, abundance, and provision are too quickly followed by those of grief, despair and maybe even hopelessness. Life hurts. The peaks and valleys can be expected, but rarely can we adequately prepare for the emotions and doubts that plague us in the valley. Even the strongest Christians often discover they knows the right answers, verses, and promises to cling to, yet, struggle with a disabling disconnect between heart knowledge and head knowledge.
I have grown with Lord tremendously in the past two years. I have read, studied, applied and regularly discipled and invested in others. I have personally seen God come through in hopeless situations where doubts overshadowed my faith. I have experienced His peace in the midst of chaos and utter darkness. Truly, I cannot think of a single time God has failed to carry me through a situation. Yet, I’ll be the first to say, when I’m in the middle of of difficult circumstances, I am often tempted to waiver in my faith. I don’t even understand why I do, I mean, God’s track record in my life is perfect. But, I do.
During my quiet time this morning I was wondering how to handle this fear and doubt that I am currently wrestling with. I poured my heart out to Him during my morning run and attempted to capture the thoughts that were making me feel so incredibly insecure. Do I believe that God is repelled by my neediness? Do I believe that my deepest needs fall beyond His sufficiency? I know the answer to both questions is no, my neediness is never too great, nor is it ever a surprise to my Savior. He knows the depth of my soul poverty and often uses the situations that lead me to realize my own insufficiency to propel me to trusting in Him alone.
But, the question I asked myself this morning, is how do I practically deal with these moments where the overwhelming thoughts are insurmountably louder then my Savior’s whisper of “I’ve Got This.” I came across a passage that jumped off the pages of the Bible into my heart today. In 2 Corinthians 1:10-11 it says, “He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.
If you are facing doubts and uncertainty one of the most efficient battle techniques is to recall the many times God has delivered you before. Remembering His faithfulness in previous times greatly increases our faith and helps us confidently HOPE in Him in our current situations. Another practical application is to be transparent and honest enough to have others team up with you in prayer so that they can testify to God’s faithfulness as well. God often answers prayers not just for our benefit, but also so that He can get great glory from the testimony of doing the impossible in our lives. When others see God answer prayers that have offered up on our behalf, they too, have reason to rejoice alongside you!
If you are struggling today, take heart, God hasn’t blinked and isn’t surprised. Your dependence on Him pleases Him greatly. God didn’t create any human to be self sufficient, not even momentarily, instead He says, apart from me you can do NOTHING. NOT A THING. Perhaps it’s time to stop trying on your own and simply confess your helplessness. He is faithful my friend. You will never have a need, whether physical, spiritual, emotional, relational, or anything in-between that God cannot meet with His sufficiency. We continuously need HIM, yet He constantly pursues US. What a sweet and beautiful irony.